My Story

HELEN TALLGREN MYSTORY

I’ve came to find who I am and my wants and desires.

My revelations 💡

always come from noticing my own pressure points and difficulties and then working through them to create a solution and how I have lead myself through a problem I have faced. I have also came to find that whenever I have realised that others suffer from the same or similar difficulties and that – I am not alone in it – others are navigating through too – it brings me comfort, makes me feel connected to others instead of feeling separate, helpless and alone with my struggles as these are not usually discussed and knowledge that if they can do it, so can I👊🏼 All this makes me wanna give the same impact to others and share my stories and struggles that I have learnt to overcome and the one’s I presently do.

Life is constant evolution. As we shift one thing it affects other. There are always interconnections that we are unaware of so as we improve we may have to rebuild a skill we have once mastered to get to our next level. That’s what I am here for.

My mission in life is to empower ourselves to be conscious humans, parents, partners and to allow a safe space for children of the future as well as our inner child. My dream is that we all find our conscious selves and grow with emotional intelligence and safety that we may create by healing our own traumas, conditioning & relational issues to provide the nurturing love we all seeked as children.

My story

In my early childhood I was raised with a loving mom in a narcissistic household. I had to rewire my brain due to my environment as our worldview and brain gets wired from 0-6 until we can rationalise and question and we mirror everything and believe it to be true. Although I grew up in an imperfect, dysfunctional household, like many of us do – there were also some wonderful memories and love towards parents and siblings. Still even I had the knowledge of being loved by my mother and siblings I didn’t feel safe emotionally. I could never have predict what the emotional tone in our home might be from one moment to the next. Anne in Harwood frequently and suddenly erupted over things that should’ve been in consequential. Myself and other family members would find ourselves walking on eggshell at times like these. We never knew when I might be lashed out at or blamed for something. It numbed me to the pain and shock of the verbal and emotional abuse, I was experiencing. While it protected the heart from breaking this protection came at a cost.

At my teenage years I went through a hard patch that impacted greatly myself and my family.
We had to seek help from a women’s shelter. This also affected my school studies and how I showed up in school. At the same time I was lucky to have had a beautiful yet long distance relationship with my first love. I thought I’d never fall in love so as that came about the distance made no difference yet it presented a challenge as times were different with barely any internet connection in the early 2000’s. Although the relationship came to the end of the road ultimately it inspired me to move countries as I finished my studies at the age of 19.

Once I moved back and started my career I became self-employed and found myself going after what I wanted. It lit a fire under my belly. I was working on many areas of my life and improving except… understanding the importance of rewiring my mind. On my way towards my dreamlife I stumbled across a narcissist and as that wound hadn’t healed I slowly fell headoverheels. This resulted even deeper brainwash that was the case of my childhood. I became a stepmom, building a house and sinking my money into it and working 12+ hours while my unemployed partner was barely getting anything done. Mainly he was building the house, finding ways to spend more money and cheating behind my back.

While he was locked away I found out he was cheating. After that I decided to built myself up to leave him. Once I confronted him he was still able to seduce me/win me over. It took more time, more insults even worse behaviour him getting entangled with an underaged which I despised of and left him, yet he still worked his way back. It took me finding my worth, my value to finally claw my way out of it. To future plan where I see my life in X years, lists of positives ( which I greatly held onto ) and negatives and reciting that out to my closest. It required me to not have to defend him (with/to barely half of the things anyone knew of) but for once STAND UP FOR defend myself. I was yet again tried to be lured back in, but this time – although BEING A “GOOD GIRL” as an empowered empath – was able to see through the mask and be unaffected. The power in that moment was unreal 💥 yet simultaneously it made me think just how blind I had been for 6 years.

I had to go far to see near

My world travels helped me to find who I am. That also made me lose what I felt as a soulmate. It was one of the hardest yet best things that ever happened to me. I rebuilt myself in a new place in a new country where I was hermitting. Only my family had access to me while being super busy themselves – to heal myself and discover who I am. It was something that felt like slow yet beautiful journey that took me through courtrooms, (volunteering) and vipassana meditation retreat – where we meditated for 10+ hours a day without any interaction, not even speaking a word for 10 days. At the end of that I had the most beautiful spiritual out of body experience of how emotion rises in (our) bodies as the root cause has not been treated.

When I continued along my healing journey, I finally decided to return home.

Which took a turn of events. It was self-reflection at best. A tragical thing happened and after being busy again in my life and I had a moment to take it all in – I broke out in tears and from that sitting I decided to seek help. Now I started to truly work on the mind of my past, those unprocessed, unexpressed emotions, blocks, traumas and more. I worked on it several years with professional help, having a coach, entering self-development, reading, reflecting, taking on and cultivating skills that empowered me. I knew all this had to happen to me so I can help others and truly relate. I needed to do the work. Behind every powerful person is hardships.. etc quote.. In the midst of that journey I found my calling.

I want to help people to see and experience The beauty I have finally found. I realise so well the fact that how we deserve more than we settle for. How we can empower ourselves and should never settle, but strive for more and cultivate tools and skills. I never want anyone to have to go through what I’ve been through so my story, my codes, my lessons can help already before the change is no longer an option but a must. I want people to have ease filled beautiful lives leading themselves and to achieve all they can be – every unexplored opportunity within their desires. Even if it helps even just one person (it makes my heart sign.) .. and that is the journey I’ve embarked on and that truly fills my soul ❤️‍🔥

My mission

in life is to help my clients through theirs pains and pressures makes me feel like I have found my passion, my purpose and my calling and I can’t wait to see the unexplored opportunities possibilities it’ll lead me to that I can’t even yet fathom. Simultaneously I am grateful for here and now. I hold space for you. I see you. You are beautiful. You are powerful. You deserve everything you can dream of and more ✨❤️‍🔥